Five Stages

hope you guys had a crazy good new years.
and a crazy good first three weeks of new years.
personally ive been kubler-rossing it up something fierce!
i guess im a pretty emotionally mature person, because i never had to go through the denial stage.
ive always known the world was going to end in 2012.
although things basically balanced out since i replaced that step with the “spontaneously projectile vomiting at the stroke of midnight while everyone else is trying to enjoy their champagne” stage of grief.
then came anger. i spent the first few days of 2011 complaining to everyone about how unfair it is that we should all die just because the mayans got bored of making calendars.
i mean, honestly. suck it up.
they should have appreciated that we wouldnt all have had the luxury of being long ago wiped out by spanish conquistadors (not sure if theyll play a role in 2012...)
but im pretty much over that. and i guess im past bargaining. ive already ruled out my plan of changing my grad school applications from film studies majors to fast track programs focusing on spaceship construction and terraforming
currently i am waist deep in soul smothering despair; so acceptance - here i come!
i cant wait until im reconciled to the fact that life must simply be lived to the fullest, cause i imagine that mindset involves a lot more sipping mai tais on the beach and a lot less having to pull the car over the side of the road cause you cant stop weeping hysterically.

Dilemma

i dont like to interrupt my twilight zone marathons, but this is important and theyre playing that one where the kids buy the electric grandmother, so ill be quick.
normally i make resolutions for the new year, but im having a lot of trouble with that this time and i need to know: the whole 2012 thing... how does that actually works?
cause the main thing on my christmas wish list this year were books about 2012, and my family totally dropped the ball.
i mean, is this our last year on earth?
or are we actually going to make it into the year 2012?
and if we do, do we have the whole year, or is the end going to sneak up and happen on March 5 or something?
i need to know, because thats crucial information for resolution crafting.
it can mean the difference between resolving to never eat a gas station honey bun again, or seeing if you can break some kind of world record for eating gas station honey buns.
crap, ive got to go.
after all this might be my last twilight zone marathon.
until the 4th of july.

Christmas

thanks to everyone for getting me much better presents than what i got them.
youd think that they cared about me and thought about my wants a lot more than i did theirs.
youd only be right in some cases.
for the others, better luck next year.
love,
frank

1 More Day

youre running through the woods.
you look behind you to see if youve lost it.
YOU TRIP!
a hidden tree root or something, your ankle twists and you fall down hard.
you scramble forward on your hands and knees, blind in the dark. your hand reaches out and touches a foot.
you look up.
its christmas eve.
and you hear christmas coming, slow and steady, through the woods.

2 More Days

its so close you can almost feel your chestnuts roasting...

3 More Days

oh man...

The Rut

im sorry to say that ive fallen into a rut this christmas season.
its my own fault. i jumped the gun when i went and learned the true meaning of thanksgiving.
total rookie mistake.
after something like that i need at least two months before i can start taking everyone and everything in my life for granted again.
without any true meaning of christmases to learn ive just been sitting around, drinking beer and eating cookies.
i was hoping last nights combination lunar eclipse / winter solstice / almost full moon / taco bell would stir up a little action, but i didnt see a single christmas werewolf.
the only thing i got from sitting outside all night with a gun was a cold.
so since i totally appreciate christmas all i can do is look forward to it.
oh well.
four more days.
get excited, i guess.